Having had experience with an eating disorder, Erin1 took precautionary steps, knowing her body would change during pregnancy.
Transcript
She (the doctor) knew about my eating disorder. I’d been very open with her. In fact, we were even – I was even being weighed on the scale backwards. That’s something that – I felt like I didn’t want to know my weight, so I said to my doctor, “Just tell me if there’s something wrong.” And I never heard anything about it, and so I assumed everything was going well. And I did – because I wanted to be really careful, and I knew that -well, I was scared of going back into my eating disorder after I had the baby because of the weight change. So I had actually been referred to a mental health program – a perinatal mental health program. And I was assessed there. I’m seeing a psychiatrist, but not really – I mean, it was mostly just to check in. It wasn’t really anything intensive. And like I said, it was – it was related to – I was scared that I would fall back into my eating disorder. That was my main concern.
Interviewer: So when – was – was the eating – so was the eating disorder under control when you got pregnant?
Yes. It was under control when I got pregnant. And it – part of it, it had to be under control for me to get pregnant. That was a bit of a worry before I got pregnant, that I wouldn’t be able to, but it ended up everything was fine. And like I said, I – I really knew that it would be a big change. In fact, it was kind of funny, because when I got pregnant, I threw out all my old clothes – like, bags and bags and bags of it, donated it, because I thought, “You know what? I’m not going to have them in my closet and be upset that I can’t back – get back into them.” So I was like really preparing myself, like I said, seeing a psychi – a specialist psychiatrist for post-partum. And my family doctor knew – and like I said, that’s what I was preparing myself for, that that would be my biggest issue to deal with.
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